The Healing Brownies

This week I was planning what to make for a cookie exchange for a Relief Society get together.  I was going back and forth and then realized there was only one thing to make.  

Sara King's Brownies

Back in the early 2000's I was in the middle of a heartbreaking divorce and my life was not playing out the way I had always planned.  I had given birth to my son Andrew in 2001, and while he brought a great deal of joy and happiness to my life, there was a cloud of worry and sadness that was overwhelming.  I had two friends Lisa and Sara that surrounded me with fun and laughter, and filled my belly with good food, and brownies.  Sara was a master brownie maker and I think she made them twice a week a times, perhaps more other times.  Lisa and I would hover and salivate over a fresh batch and then fight over who got the edges.  Those brownies not only gave me a few extra pounds, they filled me with hope for better days and helped me feel the love and support that I needed most.  

Sara King passed away this summer after a battle with cancer that no one should have to go through.  Unfortunately, these brownies couldn't heal her, but they healed me many years ago and they are helping me heal from her loss.  Every time I make these I remember her, and I laugh and I cry and I create quite the scene in my kitchen.  I remind myself of Sara's tips, to only use a fork when mixing and never over mix the eggs and sugar.  

I know there are a lot of people out there still missing Sara and trying to heal from her loss.  My pain is not anything worse then the next person, but I can at least share this and hope these brownies help you heal as they are helping me.  

Yours will probably never be as good as her's were, mine are not, but feel free to give it try and you just might find yourself a little more healed each time you make them.